Reflecting... reflecting...reflecting. My life been spinning around that is driving me crazy, many thoughts about the future what I'm gonna do now that school is over. Many things happened this year and it's only in the middle i don't know if i can take what's going to happen next. Every day something happens but it's always something bad that make me give up on living, now I decided to find someone, it's been hard so far cause i haven't got any results. First a girl i met from USA that I somehow fell in love, second a girl from Europe that wasn't looking for a relation but only a friendship, lastly a girl from another country living in Portugal that made me hope so much this was it, that all i think now is what to do about her. Still I don't know what to do now and also if I can still keep going, what can i do now? I can't lose hope otherwise I will not have a will to live but something I learned so far is that only the people who fight for it will furfill that dream. Will this happen to me as well? Many relation started in friendship, I never had someone with me i feel alone in this world, I got friends at least who will make me go on and that's what matters... I gotta think about many things before going on. Meditating helps a lot when we got problems on our mind, helps clearing, i follow the buddhist way and meditating is a way to clear your mind, reflecting on life...
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